Coronado Thunderbirds creamed Franklin Cougers 10 - 0. Our T-bird Seniors started crying, as usual. It was weird, to hate so many of the girls and to cry because they are leaving. *shrug* I cried because the umpire stole my second home run from me. No freshman ever makes a homerun; its rare anyone hits one in a rival game. The ball went far behind the fence, but then the wind curved it and took it to foul territory. It was fair damnit it! It curved after the fucking fence! I would've brought in our two other power swingers; Seniors Katie McCorkmac and Ashley 'Boomer' Medlin. Remember those two names, they'll be going to the big times.

Brandee McKinstry pitched the whole game, while her twin sister, Ashlee, played shortstop. (They're triplets, Coree is in Georgia) The two are heading back for their Senior year at Shaw High School (where-ever that is). Seniors Katie McCorkmac played 1st while Erika Mata played second base, Juniors Jazmine had third base and Vero was behind the plate at catching.

The outfield was loaded with Seniors, Alyssa at Left, Jessica Kinderson at Center and Boomer Medlin at Right. I was playing as a DP for Alyssa, so I took her place at bat.

Line up:

Ashlee McKinstry -Right/Right

Erika Mata -Right/Right

Brandee McKinstry -Left/Left

Jessica Kinderson -Right/Right

Katie Mac -Left/Left

Boomer Medlin -Right/Right

Me -Right/Right

Jazmine -Right/Right

Vero -Right/Right

♦¤"Missing"

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
Maybe someday you'll look up,
And, barely conscious, you'll say to no one:
"Isn't something missing?"

You won't cry for my absence, I know -
You forgot me long ago.
Am I that unimportant...?
Am I so insignificant...?
Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?

[Chorus:]
Even though I'm the sacrifice,
You won't try for me, not now.
Though I'd die to know you love me,
I'm all alone.
Isn't someone missing me?

Please, please forgive me,
But I won't be home again.
I know what you do to yourself,
I breathe deep and cry out,
"Isn't something missing?
Isn't someone missing me?"

[Chorus]

And if I bleed, I'll bleed,
Knowing you don't care.
And if I sleep just to dream of you
I'll wake without you there,
Isn't something missing?
Isn't something...

[Chorus]
¤♦

I wrote a bit for my novel today. I finally got a beginning for it.

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They say I'm crazy. You know, that awful crazy. The one where nothing goes right, and its all because of that stupid game. The game of hide and go seek I used to play with Delain, one of those games that doesn't have an ending. The sun starts to set and the days ends, just like everyone else. Everyone but me. You see, Delain died a long time ago. Hundreds of years ago... this very day. My best friend was one of the kind who never believed I could live for so long. Never age, never die. We used to have a game about it. Laugh until we both cried and fell asleep. My laughter ended this day, three hundred and twelve years ago. Carvok stole her away from our world; her world. That bastard, never knew how to control his lust. He's the one who fucking turned me. Killed me and brought me back. He murdered Delain. That beast. How many people has he fed off? And how many of those people had died?

His words taunt my new hunger. A hunger of starvation.

Tell Me Lies

Chapter One

The smell of rain is a smell of new death. Soft and sweet with the hint of revenge. My footsteps splash through the muddy puddles of this cursed town. Thoughts lost to the days to come, the fear that is reflected from Carvok; I shudder everytime I speak his name. He's taken everything I wanted and needed to live. He stole my life with his fingertips, the rough, cold, fingers that slit Delain's throat. The rain stops but the thick smell paints the air, something feels so wrong. No one's behind me, no one's near me. I can sense someone, feel and taste their forbinned breath of alcohol that peirces his tongue. "Where are you?" I mumble to the rain, "show yourself, you stupid animal." No one's there, like I thought. The sound of lightening has me jumping on its command. Sometimes I wish I weren't so afraid. I wish I was strong like Delain, that way I could face my brother and Carvok all in one day without tears pouring down my face. I'm helpless, and I hate it.

Starting off to a run, I pray no one is following. The rain has created a cloud of sorrow and captures the city. No one is outside like on a normal night. A car turns by, mud slashing on my soggy clothing, 'damnit'. Now I have to worry about that creature behind me and not getting sick. "Astolat!!", His voice is of liquid fire, I freeze in the cold rain; eyes shut tight. Breath is so hard to come by, "Jerik, what do you want?" Fear is so easy to welcome when you know how powerful my brother has become. Nothing moves, it seems, when two creatures of my kind cross paths, it always seems that way. Jerik who is my blood brother, has fire red hair that matches blood and eyes of coal. Prefect teeth with sharp fangs that are stained from his last hunt, "Jerik, please-" He stomps a foot to the ground, it clashes around the hollow street. Flinching is the best thing I can do, for the slightest movement or the loudest laugh I flinch on cue. "I told you stay off my hunting grounds," His voice melts the thin ice from the rain and burns the veins in my body. "I'm sorry, I wasn't paying attention." My head is down as I speak, afraid that he will lose control. Hidding my dull brown eyes with my eyelids, he speaks, "you never were a smart one, even when you were human." He disappears, where has he gone, its never over that fast. Silence has become so loud at the moment, my eyes open and reveal a site that makes me scream. Jerik stands tall infront of me, towering over me like I was a human. He knows I hate him for the way he acts, the way he makes me fear. "Your out of line. You should remember that." With a quick step, my road isn't blocked anymore.

Damn I hate him, and his fearsome ways. With quick footsteps I turn the corner, almost running into the old lamp post. The rain has matted my hair to my skin as I run.Why does Jerik always have to be following me? Isn't it enough that he killed Delain, one of the few people that I trust. He had to take her from me, now, he wants me... his own blood sister! "You should just go to hell, Jerik. Burn." I mutter to myself as I pull out the rusty key to open the stone door. He kills so many people like a bloody animal.

edit-3/20/05

Never had I come to find out that vampires are jerks too. I remember Jerik used to hug me when I screamed at night and helped me in school. Now he's just another blood sucking, incolent fool. Taking a seat on the floor, I stretch out. Bones crackaling in my body as I yawn. Black hair covered my face as I curled into a ball. Since I'm ranting about Jerik, I should rant about Carvok as well. Lord Carvok is one of the head fathers. He is the strongest leader that has ever come to walk with our kind. He has everything and anything, but the love from another. No one could love his cold heart, sure he has women from both kinds, but they're just his toys. His favorite is a young woman of seventeen, blonde hair and blue eyes, stupid but something to look at. But back to Lord Carvok, he killed off the Landersons, triplet brothers with the highest ranking from the witches. Story has it, when his village was being attacked by the Landersons, he slaughtered them. Drank their blood and went to sleep, all without a broken bone, though a scar on his cheek and a bruise in his soul. He attacked as soon as Lady Volt fell to the floor, a gash in her heart from the golden bullets of holy water. She wasn't a Vampire, she was to become one that night, but no, there was no need fro holy water.

Not that it would help kill her. The fables you hear are nothing like the real facts. But it is getting late. That story is for another time.  

What ever happened to the time you told me I was stupid. Screamed at me for being me. Laughed with the others. But you could never see me. Laying on the floor, a rope around my neck, car keys in my hands, and a dagger in my heart. The blood key around my ankle, left for Prince Charming, was sold with your last memory of me.

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Adam's Song
I never thought I'd die alone
I laughed the loudest who'd have known
I traced the cord back to the wall
No wonder it was never plugged in at all
I took my time, I hurried up
The choice was mine, I didn't think enough
I'm too depressed, to go on
You'll be sorry when I'm gone
CHORUS:
I never conquered, rarely came
16 just held such better days
Days when I still felt alive
We couldn't wait to get outside
The world was wide, too late to try
The tour was over we'd survived
I couldn't wait till I got home
To pass the time in my room alone

I never thought I'd die alone
Another six months I'll be unknown
Give all my things to all my friends
You'll never !!!STEP!!! foot in my room again
You'll close it off, board it up
Remember the time that I spilled the cup
Of apple juice in the hall
Please tell mom this is not her fault
(chorus)
I never conquered, rarely came
Tomorrow holds such better days
Days when I can still feel alive
When I can't wait to get outside
The world is wide, the time goes by
The tour is over, I'd survived
I can't wait till I get home
To pass the time in my room alone